Archives: June 2012

Moving forward

I just spent at least 5 minutes debating as to whether posting about being excited about my divorce is inappropriate…
I’ve decided that I don’t really care what everyone else thinks! I’m excited and I’m going to say so!

I’ve been looking forward to finally getting that bit of paperwork out of the way so that I can move on with the rest of my life…
So we showed up at the court building on a rainy grey Tuesday morning, I stood up in front of the registrar (bright green and yellow hair and all) for 2 minutes and walked out a free woman. Well that was easy!

Going through emails today I came across one from the Family Court confirming that indeed I did attend the court on Tuesday and informing me that:

“Your Application for Divorce has been heard and a divorce order has been made.

The divorce order will take effect one day and one month from when it was made. A copy of the order will be mailed to you, usually within two weeks of it taking effect.”

So I guess the party will be happening in a month or so!

On a serious note though, I’m thankful for new beginnings, closing the book on this particular chapter of my life and looking forward to all the tomorrows in the world.

 

Linking up with Kate @katesaysstuff today for Thankful Thursday.

I’m back!

It’s been at least a few months of being faded and jaded but you’ll be pleased to know that finally, I’m back!

Yes, the vivid, vibrant me that stands out in the crowd is re-emerging as we speak.

I do have some words of advice though for getting back into the bleach-and-colour mode…

Firstly, your hair does not like you when you melt it. *sigh*
Yep, if you discover that your bleach is too old and doesn’t work and then decide to re-do it the next day with new bleach, it’s a good idea to put less on the bits that are already more bleached from previous bleaching all those months ago. Or at least smear those bits in hair wax or Vaseline or something to protect them. Cos it all melts and dissolves and goes all weird otherwise! Never managed this one before, but there’s always a first for everything.
Totally talented, why yes, thank you, I am!

After that somewhat shaky start though, we’ve managed to do pretty well with the rest I think.
For the record, I didn’t melt my other half’s hair, for which she is very thankful!
And both colour schemes are looking pretty good so far… the real test will be when the dye gets washed out.

We did take some pics along the way, you just need to picture the giggles that accompanied each step and you’ll get a feel for the hilarity that ensues on dyeing days around here. Add in the teenage daughter telling us just how crazy we are and that’s pretty much it!

Vegetarian tacos

Corn tortillas

250g white corn masa flour
310g water

Place into TMX bowl and knead for approx 4 mins.

Tip out onto floured mat and knead until smooth. Divide into 16 pieces and press out with a tortilla press (or roll out to approx 2mm thick). Dry fry on a pan at medium heat, both sides.

Filling

155g rice
1 onion
2 cloves garlic
1/2 red capsicum, chopped
40g olive oil
2 tomatoes, chopped (or a tin of diced tomatoes)
2 tbsp tomato paste
1 or 2 tins of kidney beans
1/2 tsp ground cumin
1 tsp chilli powder
125g water

 

Cook the rice and set aside:
– 155g rice

Peel and quarter onion and put into TMX with garlic. Blitz for about 5 seconds on speed 8:
– 1 onion
– 2 cloves garlic

Add chopped capsicum and oil. Cook for 3 mins at 100C on speed 1:
– 1/2 capsicum
– 40g oil

Add tomatoes and tomato paste. Cook for 1 min at 100C on speed 1:
– 2 chopped tomatoes or 1 tin diced tomatoes
– 2 tbsp tomato paste

Add the kidney beans, cumin, chilli powder and water and cook for 5mins at 100C, on reverse, speed 1.5:
– 1 or 2 tins kidney beans
– 1/2 tsp ground cumin
– 1 tsp chilli powder
– 125g water

Reduce heat to 70C and cook for another 10mins, reverse, speed 1 with the MC off.

Add cooked rice and cook for 3 mins at 100C, on reverse, speed soft.

 

Serve with salsa, salad and cheese or whatever else takes your fancy!

Reflections

I am…

stubborn.
not giving up.
nearly always late.
the one who gets out of bed.
better than that. growing every day.
a roller derby girl both on the track and off.
proud. not broken. passionate. loud. intense.
one step away from losing it. in control. still standing.
moving to the beat of my own drum. learning every day. optimistic.
intensely musical. willing to believe there’s good in everyone. tired.
taking it one moment at a time. alive. trying not to be judgemental.
vibrant. experiencing the extremes. never boring. unpredictable.
fiercely loyal. listening. standing still. a whirlwind inside.
screaming. rediscovering. a contradiction. unrepentant.
a survivor. colourful. uninhibited. overloaded.
sometimes selfish. not pretending any more.
eccentric. focussed. full of good intentions.
sensitive. strong. flexible. eclectic. bright.
cheeky. starting again over and over.
the queen of procrastination.
sometimes stretched thin.
running to stand still.
going out on a limb.
a coffee snob.
enough.

I am me.

Some days

Some days I think I would like to stay in bed.
Especially when it’s raining.

It’s warm there.
I can hide under the covers and forget that the rest of the world exists.
Dreams can take me anywhere I want to go, I can be who I want to be and shape my world the way I want it. I can forget that the last two years have been such a rollercoaster of emotions. That although I have lived some of the most amazing highs of my life, I have also touched the depths of despair.

Some days there’s so much that I want to say, so many things I want to shout out to the world.
I just want to be heard.
I want my side of the story acknowledged.
I want to jump up and down, throw the biggest tantrum ever.
It won’t change anything though.
How do you fight when those you are fighting for don’t want it?

Some days it’s a struggle to wake up at all.

Some days are magic.
Filled with laughter, joy, tears and the knowledge that I’m not alone.
That someone gets it all, knows everything about me and still believes in me.
Makes me feel like I’m the most beautiful girl in the world.

Some days I know that I’m not the only one struggling.
I feel like such a fraud, complaining about my petty worries when there are so many others with much heavier burdens to bear every day. It’s all about perspective.

Most days I just get up.
Winter won’t last forever, soon it will be Spring again, then Summer. Plus it has to stop raining soon!